Well, well, well…what do we have here? Another month trying to duck past me and it thinks that I wouldn’t see it. Well, it worked because I didn’t. One day it was November 1st and the next thing I know it’s Thanksgiving, and now we’re one day away from the final month of the year!
I’m always so surprised how fast time flies by and so I recently Googled this whole “flying time” concept. Oh who am I kidding? I literally just looked it up 5 minutes before starting this post. Actually I looked up how to slow down time because nowadays I can’t seem to get a grasp on it.
One thing that resonated was trying to practice more mindfulness in our day by paying more attention and noticing what we’re doing. Basically being more in the present moment. Something tells me I haven’t been very good at that because my mind is all over the place. This could be a forewarning on how the rest of this post may go.
I know for a fact, I haven’t been living in the present moment. I’ve been in the next weekend moment, next month moment, and next year moment. Days that haven’t even happened yet, I’m thinking about. I’ve been on this go, go, go mode…and then when I stop, I’m exhausted and resort to vegging out and watching Netflix, or Hulu, or whatever programming option I have available. I tune out and then get ready for the next day and do it all over again.
Overall I’m a busy bee which is quite a contrast to how life was this time a year ago. But then again, a part of that comes down to time management and making things a priority and shelving distractions. I could sit down and write more blog posts but I don’t. Part of that stems from feeling like I really don’t have much to say. Another part of me maybe needed a break. But mostly I didn’t really have much to say, and then when I did start blog posts, I would hit writer’s block and really had no idea on where to go from where I was.
I recently attended a Friendsgiving gathering where my lovely friend Deb, kindly and graciously pointed out my lack of blog posts. She noticed, which honestly, touched my heart hearing that someone noticed. Yeah I noticed too. My days are busy, and I get that so are other people’s, but the last thing I wanted to do at the end of the day was stare at a blank screen trying to figure out what to say that wouldn’t make me sound like I was a written word jigsaw puzzle tossed out onto the table and having no idea where to start putting the pieces together. Pro tip: Gather the outside border pieces and assemble those first. But I couldn’t find my border when it came to writing.
Of course that made me feel sad at times. I’ve always found comfort and joy (Ha! A bit of holiday cheer tossed in there) writing up new posts, but just like lulls in running, my writing mojo was gone. And this is probably one reason why my mind would periodically resort to the idea of closing up shop on this blog.
But then I think, I have some lovely pictures to show of the trails! Although I suppose I could use Instagram for that. And I have words to say! Even if I don’t know exactly what those words are.
Yes, life has been busy but that doesn’t mean I’ve not been running. It’s a big part of why I have been busy. I’ve been running. I just haven’t been talking about it much. Maybe I should change that.
So as this month closes, and another one begins, I’m going to try and be more mindful of the days. I’m going to try and live more in the present moments and maybe try writing about them more. I’m going to try and slow down my mind and maybe that will help slow down time for me and December will feel like I’m running through molasses wearing 20 pound cinder blocks strapped to my feet going against 50 mph winds. Of course when I think about it, some running days do feel like that.
But now I really understand what Ferris Bueller meant when he said, “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it.” I get it Ferris. I finally get it.
Thanks for reading.