For the past several weeks, it’s been difficult to find the words that capture what I’m feeling. The world is feeling heavy and dark and at times I’ve struggled to find a balance between staying informed about everything that’s been going on and not feeling overwhelmed.
There are things happening right now that are bigger and greater than we’ve ever experienced, at least for me they have, and I guess you can say it’s been that way for several years now. Nowadays some things feel almost trivial compared to what is going on in parts of the world, and in some states, knowing what our fellow humans are going through and experiencing.
The world feels more unsafe, and life feels even more uncertain, and there are moments when part of me wants to crawl under a rock to hide away and come out when it feels safer to do so, and a part of me still sees the beauty and goodness in this world that I know is still there, and will always be there.
And if you’re feeling this way too, know you’re not alone.
I’m trying to remain hopeful and positive even when circumstances can feel hopeless. There is a constant reminding of myself that we can only control the things that we can control.
Right now that entails me focusing on training for the Chicago Marathon which is in 6 months, and that may seem like an enormous amount of time to train for a race, but I haven’t had a “training for a marathon” mindset for a few years and I feel as if I’m learning from square one again which I’m still trying to decipher if that’s a good thing or not so good thing. Guess I’ll find out!
All I know is there is much work to be done between now and then and I’m taking it day by day because we don’t know what the world is going to look like tomorrow. Hopefully better! Hopefully filled with more love, kindness, compassion, and all the good stuff that makes this world so beautiful. Yes, I’m going to keep believing in better.
Thanks for reading and stay well!